I felt regret that I didn’t realize there were Scottish tartans everywhere and Celtic culture all around till yesterday, so I decided to drop the plan to enter the castle, and use the money for the ticket to buy souvenirs of clans/tartans and Celtic stuff.
火車是下午兩點半，所以時間不多，整個早上我就在Royal Mile (High Street)上從頭走到尾又走到頭又走到尾；在尾端，我找到了Celtic的蹤跡，在頭部，也就是城堡處，我找到了屬於自己的蘇格蘭格紋，而在其間…則補捉了些有趣的角落。
I walked along the High Street back and forth till I needed to catch the train. At the end of the street, I found a trail of Celtic symbols, and near the beginning, i.e. the castle, I found a tartan of my own. And along the street, I also used my camera to capture some special images.
我對塞爾特文化沒有研究，但從這兩天看到的商品，最主要的特徵就是象徵不同意義的結與連環圖型，像是Destiny Knot, Path of Life, Eternity Knot, Evolving Knot等等，對我來說就是符文的一種，很適合拿來做手工藝品 😛
I don’t know much about Celtic culture, but I suppose symbols of knots and endless curves are the main representation for this culture. Such as the Destiny Knot, Path of Life, Eternity Knot, Evolving Knot, etc. For me, they’re just like Runes, suitable for inspiration for handicrafts.
The symbols are mostly related to nature, life and mind-body-spirit. Just take a look at the picture below. In the middle is the combination of 4 elements, and on the right is the Evolving Know, which brings peace and a feeling of oneness to the wearer. On the left is the symbol of the Celtic Cross, which also means the great wheel of life. To me, those concepts are very similar to those in Tarots. I think I’ll go deeper next time after I’ve prepared more.
In the mean time, I started to realize each clan has its own tartan design after I got here. I tried to find my own clan, but it was impossible since I’m obviously not Scottish. And it’s also difficult to find a tartan I like since there are so many. Thus…I adopted the spiritual way to sort out this problem.
沒錯，我不是蘇格蘭人…但誰說我 “以前"不是呢? 我相信前世今生，在我投胎那麼多世之內，至少有那麼一世我是蘇格蘭人，或跟某個蘇格蘭家族有淵源吧?? 於是在紀念品店找到一本介紹所有clan & tartan的書，當作占卜書，與我的靈魂連結後，希望找出跟我最有緣的tartan，翻開一看…是一個叫Innes的姓氏，motto是Be Traist，也就是Be Faithful。
Indeed, I AM not Scottish, but maybe I WAS. I believe in past lives, and I think I might have been Scottish in one life…or at least related to a Scottish family in one life. Then I found a book listing all the clans and corresponding tartans, and used it as an oracle book. I put my hand on the book, connected with my soul, and tried to re-link to the life when I was Scottish, then just opened any page to see what my clan was. The answer is Innes, whose motto is Be Traist (i.e. Be Faithful). I like it!
Although it’s not my style using a boar’s head as a crest, I did like its tartan pattern. Therefore I decided to follow the result and started to find my “roots".
Unfortunately, I could hardly find any souvenirs for Innes…maybe it’s a rare clan if I have to guess. I checked all the tartans and crests, and only found a similar one whose clan is Mackinnon. The tartan has the same red background and dark green stripes, but a simpler design. Also the crest is a boar’s head; it’s just there’s also a deer’s horn in the boar’s month.
I doubted that Innes was even an official clan, so I went to the shop and used the “oracle" book again…and ended up with the SAME result. Then I thought, maybe I need another clan which is more popular but also related to my past life. So I did it again…this time…the result was MacKinnon…exactly the clan I found most similar to Innes. Is this so-called synchronicity?
Alright，買不起12鎊的Innes圍巾，只好買50p的MacKinnon書籤啦!!當做一個小記念…搞不好真的某一世我就是Innes or MacKinnon家族的也說不定呢!
Eventually I found a scarf with the Innes red tartan, but it cost 12 pounds. So instead, I bought a 50p MacKinnon bookmark as a souvenir. Maybe I REALLY WAS an Innes or MacKinnon back in that time 😛
原本這兩天一直有很重的孤獨感，可是找到自己的 “姓氏"後，突然有種踏實的感覺，覺得找到了自己的依歸，好像自己也屬於這裡，頓時覺得旅行前抽到的 Hello From Heaven指的就是這件事情，我那好幾世前的蘇格蘭血統正向我招手歡迎我回來呢!
Originally, I felt alone and something missing in my heart for the past two days. But ever since I recognized Innes as “my clan and tartan", I felt down-to-earth and calm again; like I’d found somewhere I belong. Suddenly I connected the card I drew before this trip, Hello From Heaven, to this feeling, and realized that maybe this was what the card meant; that my Scottish past life was welcoming me back!
四天三夜的愛丁堡行就這樣結束了，中間心情有高有低，有計畫也有變化，但在今天找到自己的 “根"後突然有種踏實感…總算為這趟旅程畫下完美的句點 🙂
This trip to Edinburgh is now over. Although With ups and downs, plans and surprises, I ended this journey with the peace I found after finding my own “roots".